I met a girl outside, she said she was fucked up off 4 xanax pills. And was talking about murdering people because she was pissed off (talking about different ways to kill people). I knew I had to be some type of "calming point" in her life - I knew I had to influence her in someway to better herself, and not do something in the future she would regret - where she could hurt herself or hurt others. So I just explained to her what I do when I get pissed off with people, which is that I don't "involve myself into their lives" and I move on. She found relation to this point - of 'moving on' and letting go - and shared some things her dad would tell her about forgiving. I never said the word forgiveness though, that I regret, I should of made that point clear - but I will not have regret, because I did all in my power to make her consider her actions, to not deal with petty things like that. We also talked about handling these situations effectively, and self-defense.
She probably wont remember any of it, but I still imprinted something. But Inside, i was shocked, that this is what we have become as a society - jealous and evil, wanting to cause harm to each other. I do not see a good future within the habits i saw within her - but I did my best to have a clear starting point and direct her the best I could to support herself.
I have not dealt with these points before in such a long time - but I feel if I could get more practice at helping peopel (first getting a stable foundation within myself)- i could help people in these situations more effectively, also because I have been in the same boat.
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