League of legends experience

I've been playing this video game with people at my school called League of Legends. And I like the game, but the online community is piss poor. Every single random person on the game, is a whiny person who consistently blames other players for their experiences. There is no rational excuse for the amount of abuse through words that takes place on the game. Anyway, I have built up a lot of strong reactions within this towards the human race being nothing more than a parasite - as an emotional build up of annoyance with this typical, general competitive human behavior that exists within everyone. I've reacted myself, participating in responding to others who are doing this - in a fashion, mimicking them at points when I've built up anger about the situation, where I become one of them -- allowing the cloning, brainwashing process of spitefulness to continue. "Let he without sin cast the first stone "-- and I am no person without sin - so I am going to not allow these reactions to others, it is just unacceptable. If we are going to change this world we have to stop this self-abuse, without any excuses to continue in self abuse no matter what. Yes, there are a lot of "trolls" - "nasty people" out there - (I mean just look what's on TV, look at what entertains people these days) - meaning we cannot sit here and change every person -- or respond to every person -- it is totally pointless -- only more hate compounds within self through time -- so we have to compound self-forgiveness -- to accumulate self direction so that when we inevitably face these situations wherever we go -- we handle it in complete, absolute self-honesty and self-respect within and as life itself - and not the brainwashed ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame the human race of being incapable of changing -- when it is actually me who has allowed myself not to change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to attack others because of the experience of disliking the way we humans exist today because i create a reaction of wanting to participate the way they are participating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself based on judgments others project on to me when they are only projecting it on to themselves - they create the experience within themselves.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe i am righteous in my opinons towards others - and feel the power of 'combating' them when they initiate spitefulness because I have misplaced myself within the reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be cloned in a form of spitefulness in wanting to attack others who i beleive have made me feel uncomfortable - when i am really responsibile for my own expeirence

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